i feel love.
a very deep, deep sense of it.
it is like a shower of blessings that
humble me so.
today, i sensed a shift in the universe.
as if a positive energy surge just swept through my world.
i have a feeling about what prompted it
and i am so amazed.
so amazed at how, in an instant,
one's life can change for the better.

and in this sudden shift,
i see great light.
light that will guide,
protect, inspire, teach...
the seeds of growth
that i and so many others I know
are in need of.

today, i have a solid, renewed sense of hope...
in myself,
in others and
in what is possible in my future.

now, i am ever so grateful
and promise myself that I will keep moving
in this direction
to live a better life.
amen.

my "a ha!" moment

january seemed to whiz by.
i'm taking better care of myself and have been
doing at least 30-45 minutes worth
of cardio every week + strength training exercises.
thanks to my friend/co-worker's recommendation,
i bought this really cool fitness journal from
Lucy (www.lucy.com) and it's really
helped me keep track of my fitness goals
and most importantly, keeps me motivated to keep going.

i've been eating more healthfully and have lost
my intense cravings for sweets and all the other
bad stuff.
i still eat them every once in a while. i just don't gorge on the stuff.
and when i know I've eaten a bit more than i needed to of the stuff,
i make sure to do at least 30 minutes of cardio that day, just to
burn it off before I go to bed. There are times when I am so determined
that I'll work out at 9p/10p if i have to....and i didn't get home til about 11:30p.
it's all worth it.

in my first month of my commitment to
becoming healthier,
I've lost a half inch off of my waist,
my mood has gotten better
and I think i FINALLY understand
and accept exactly what i need to
do in order to be healthy.
i would call it a major "a ha!" moment in my life.
i rewarded myself for fullfilling my January fitness
goals by buying myself new Ecco walking shoes
(they're the 2nd best pair of fitness shoes i've ever had.
the other was my first pair of Saucony running shoes.)
AND....a Le Creuset dutch oven.
(yes, i am a happy girl).