as i sit and wait for the blood to slowly make it's way
down from my head,
i take a huge breath of relief.
for the first time since i read about it on
an on-line yoga page,
i was able to bend at the waist and let my
upper torso just hang there for 5 minutes
during my little yoga routine this evening.
it is a technique which helps alleviate all
of the muscles (particularly, those of the back)
that help us stand erect all day long.

for that brief moment, your back has a chance
to re-group and all of the connective tissue
(fascia) that keeps it together has a moment
to stretch and make more space for your often cramped
up muscles.

in that "moment of brevity", as my ex-co-worker, Drew, would call it,
i amazingly re-discovered focus.

in those five minutes of time, i sent my
good vibes to at least 10 people i love,
remembered a few of the things that i truly value,
and felt a sense of clarity that has evaded me
over the last few months.

it's such a blessing to have that experience
when most of my time is spent pondering the
gazillion lists of obligations and responsibilities
that i have to tackle on the daily...or
the unncertainty of my life's visions, etc. etc.


of course, it's not like my daily life is
filled with doom and gloom.
i suppose i've just been in a better place
than now.
then again, don't we always think that
no matter where we are in life?

as luck would have it,
my blood has finally made its way to the rest of me
and i can feel the weight of my body again,
especially that damn kink in my neck and
tension in my lower back.

nevertheless, it was worth the
5 minutes of stillness,
hanging there like a possum in a tree.
it's one of the few times lately
where the chaos that surrounds me
has no place in my world.

a gazillion amens to that.

til next time.

good morning!

ahhhhh....i feel so much better today.
this past week has been an emotional roller coaster
which reached its high point yesterday with
me completely pissed off and yelling on the phone
in front of the McDonald's where i was about to eat.
i hadn't eaten anything that morning so the
rush of bad adrenalin from my anger
left me exhausted and famished.

everything's ok, though.
i still wonder why my emotions came out like that.
there was no hesitation at all.
my values were plain and simply compromised and
i just wasn't havin' it.

the nice thing, though, was that i hadn't been
so clear about anything like that in a while.
it was nice to not waiver or feel unsure about
what i was saying.
i felt completely justified and the words coming out of
my mouth even made sense, in spite of my emotional state.

hmmm...i think the last time i had a moment like that
was when i reacted to something my mom did/said to me
that was completely off kilter.

its just nice to be at peace right now, and I owe that all to
*the warm hug i got from the bf when i got home
*the nice japanese dinner i had with my brother
*the hour i spent at the gym doing laps in the pool and hanging out in the hot tub
and...
*ending the day with a good laugh by watching "School of Rock" with the bf. That movie is too cute and funny. The kids in it just make your heart melt. And Jack Black...he's probably one of my favorite comedians. 'cracks me up everytime!

anyway, i'm off on a hunt to find a nice breakfast place for me and the bf to eat at this morning.

namaste.