good morning!
'got up around 10:30a...was awakened by the phone.
my girfriend, R, needed help finding cheap parking locations in the city.
after hanging up, I rolled over in bed and unsuccessfully tried to
start a conversation with the bf.
too bad SOMEONE needed more shut eye.
hmmm...'wonder if he's just trying to avoid our garage-cleaning
date for today.

I'm just happy that my arms and hands aren't sore from my
massage sessions with good friends last night.
I don't think I was paying enough attention to my body mechanics
since I was so focused on working out all of the tension
in their bodies. I was so determined!

Anyway, our conversation afterwards got me thinking more
and more about running in a marathon.
I was actually inspired earlier this week from one of my
massage clients at the spa.
She is part of "Team in Training" to run the breast cancer
marathon in Chicago this weekend.
I was all excited when she told me that once you sign up,
they guarantee that you will finish the race no matter
where you are in the athletic ability spectrum.

I thought about the significance of the whole thing.
Seriously, why the hell would I want to subject myself to
something so physically demanding????
Somehow, though, it made sense.
In spite of my current non-athletic state,
I love playing sports.
I was on all kinds of sports teams in elementary, jr. high and high school.
I KNOW my body will remember how to move like an athlete.
I just have to re-train it.

Besides, I've secretly been feeling this need to accomplish
a physical feat. For years I've tried to lose weight and exercise,
only to be beaten down by own lack of will-power and discipline.
Perhaps the training part of the marathon will enable me to
finally LEARN those values.

Most importantly, I need to use it before I lose it...
my body, that is.
I've always felt ashamed that, as a generally healthy person,
I don't maintain/improve upon my physical abilities
when so many people out there can't.
At least this time, along with accomplishing something for myself,
I can use my physical abilities in support of others.

wow...this all seems fine and dandy in my head.
trust me, it always does.
At least I'm motivated again to do something healthy with my body
and my spirit.
Inspiration is priceless!