john mayer and blogging
funny how listening to certain songs activates your
conditioned repsonse to things.
like, for me, listening to John Mayer while sitting in front of the computer
makes me want to blog.
it reminds me of the time i first began blogging...the year I
blogged religiously.

i guess i really needed that outlet back then
being that I was alone most of the day
since I was unemployed and my bf was out....
working.

truthfully, it's an outlet i still need now.
unfortunately, I am knee-deep in the craziness of my work life.
believe me, it's not like i choose to be here.
if i had a choice, i'd be doing something much more meaningful.
but unfortunately, I must abide by the code of...responsibility.
ugh!

unfortunately, i've wasted a lot of time working overtime
just trying to keep pace with everything.
dammit...the chaos just never ends.
in fact, I'm here now at 7 in the freakin' evening
getting ready to "start" the rest of my occasional
12-hour work days.
I'm telling you, this part of my life SUCKS right now.

there are days where I literally just cry
because i'm so fed up.
there's never enough time for anything.
I'm always here so I don't have enough time for myself
to look for what i really want to be doing.

I've been dealing alright.
I haven't completely lost it...yet.
I'm still smarter than i look, so I can handle things.
Thank goodness I have been constantly blessed
with friends and family to spend time with on the weekends.
I don't even plan it. It just happens.
ALso,
After my Auntie Linda passed, we've made it a tradition to
have SUnday dinner at my Uncle's.
We chit chat and tsis mis. It's the coolest thing.
hehehe...kinda reminds me of the movie, "Soul Food".
I think I am finally realizing how blessed I am to have family.

Well, this was definitely a treat to blog more than one paragraph.
Unfortunately, my case files are calling.
Hopefully, I can get outta here before 9p.