buddy to be

So today I continued to share the exciting news
about the arrival of my nephew...wow...my
real-related-by-blood nephew. (i can't believe i just wrote that)

in the middle of my storytelling with some folks,
i realized that I was beginning to feel the same,
strange, icky feeling that my brother experiences
whenever he shares the unexpected news to people.

for the first time, i had this strange sense of being judged
as I found myself making a case for why I had all faith
in my brother and his girlfriend to raise their child
successfully. it was wierd. i'm not usually in the habit
of defending my brother even though I am an older sister. but this
time for some reason i felt like i was.

...and i never want to feel that way again.

i need to be more patient with people to process things like this
on their own time and space. I have to remember that this is something
i cannot control.

the most important thing is my faith in things to come
and my brother's & his girlfriend's capacity to face them head on.
i am incredibly PROUD of how they've stepped things up for themselves
and eachother. They've accomplished things as a couple that even my SO
and I have yet to do in the decades we've been together.

for now i pray for the little guy's safe arrival and my new sister's
healthy pregnancy & childbirth. life is good, and I am curious
and excited to see what other truths are unveiled by this new
life that we have been blessed with.

(see you in a few months, little buddy! ~love, tita & tito)