maybe I'm just PMS-ing but...
I don't want to leave the little one tomorrow
to go to work.
This is my last week on my part-time schedule and
I am dreading going back full-time.
I'm going to miss being with the little guy.
Our quality time is so precious to me.
I love every minute of it - even when I'm tired
and wish I had an extra set of hands to help.
I love watching him wake up in the morning,
especially when he wakes up happy and smiling.
When he is in this state, he just lays there content
while observing his surroundings,
patiently waiting for me to wake up.

Because I have to give up more of my days now to work,
I am feeling really resentful and bitter.
"Screw work!", I say...
though I know it isn't realistic since it is what helps
to support the little one.

I suppose I should be focusing more on the positive
side of things, but
I'm not in the mood.
I just wish things could be different
so that I could continue in
spending most of my days
being with the little guy,
playing,
guiding,
and watching him grow and develop.
I know I have the evenings and weekends, but
I want more time.

Maybe tomorrow I will be in a better mood.