s w i m m i n g . . .

I am swimming in the abyss.
blindly I go, as I follow instinct and routine
to keep afloat.
the abyss has its own beauty
which i appreciate and respect.
but i need a better way to control
this new world
so that i can feel solid in my foundation,
solid in each step I take.

it is a beautiful place.
but i realize that the secret to
enjoying this new environ
is to not lost one's sense of self
and to take care of one's health -mental and physical.

I suppose this much is true for many
circumstances, places,.
but i write to remind myself.
because it is harder than ever to remember...

me.

to take care of me.
to think of me.
to love me.

because the abyss is worth every breath,
every ounce of energy,
every second of life
to swim in.

yes, it is all-encompassing
but it is a transformative force
that brings new life with each swell of the ocean above.
and I am hooked,
I am hooked
for life.
forever.
and ever.
the abyss is forever a part of me.