week 29 (7 months, one week, and 4 days)

I cannot believe we have made it this far in our pregnancy.
Just 3-4 months ago, I was still taking one day at a time,
hoping for the best. I didn't put too much stock in what
was to come - just in case.
My pregnancy is deemed high risk, so I've just been
super cautious emotionally.

Then, after my checkup last week, I just sobbed.
For some reason, it hit me hard that this little being
in my belly has survived and grown over these
last 7 months - with no interference from his large
fibroid neighbor. AND that we were now beginning
the final trimester of this journey.
So I gave thanks for that specific moment,
with no expectation of being given any guarantees for the future.
I just gave thanks for the gift to make it that far
and to be in that place at that time.

I understand now why it takes 9-10 months to make a baby:
It takes at least that long for the rest of us to grow up some more
in order to face the adventures and challenges ahead.

In this time of growth, I think I finally get what it means to
breathe in each moment and live with intention.
Sometimes, I literally stop and consciously BREATHE
while I'm moving on to the next thing on my 'to do' list
or just moving through my day.
It's difficult to remember, though, so I have to force myself
to keep things in perspective.
At least this is a start to "living consciously", as Oprah would say.

I've also come to understand better what it means to have patience,
namely in having patience in the process of things.
And through this understanding, my belief is affirmed:
it IS about the journey.