10:48p

wow...didn't realize it's almost 11p!
been online since i got home at 7p searching'
various schools.
trying to follow through with some of the goals i had written down
back in May.
This particular goal involved researching
grad school programs and massage therapy courses.
it's amazing how one can be in the groove just searching for
3 hours straight!

Thankfully i can do this in bed with my bf's lap top
and wireless network card thingy.

my own rollercoaster
monday was splendid at work. (woah...i haven't used that word in a long time!)
got through the day without a hitch.
i was feelin' good.
'even arrived early...try 7:45 (I usually arrive at 9) and got
a whole mess of stuff done before 9.
i was in my element.

I shoulda knocked on wood cause
tuesday came around and was the complete opposite.
of course, i got over it thanks to my co-worker
who constantly looks out for me and vice versa.

I try to remind myself not to take things so seriously...
it's just a job, i tell myself.
this isn't my passion or my calling.
it's just a way to help make ends meet and learn something new.
this is one tiny part of my life.

but it's hard when you are an emotional person like me.
it's more challenging for me to just shake things off like most people.
i read into things wayyy more than normal
thus, it becomes more personal than it needs to be.

thankfully today was a lot better.
i told myself i would never ever miss a lunch break again,
which i did yesterday.
that probably made things worse than normal.
so today i walked up and down the street, enjoying the sunshine.
'stopped by the spa to see my favorite person to harass there.
he makes my days go by sooo much faster whenever i call him
to check on my shift schedule for the day.
I am sOOOO thankful i have massage to balance out my "work life",
even though i don't consider massage to be work.

in any case, i'm at the point now where i simply refuse to
take any more crap.
my emotions are no longer clouding my practical senses.
I think it's about that time for me to JUST DEAL
in the most mature and healthy way possible.
I owe it to myself.

soon-to-be tita (again)
I'm so excited for my cousin and her husband.
They're expecting a little one in a few months.
'Just saw the ultrasound pics on her blog.
I got all veklempt looking at it.

I also started reviewing my pregnancy massage book again.
'wanted to brush up on stuff since I haven't used this modality in well
over 8 months.
'haven't gotten a request for a pregnancy massage at the spa yet.

too bad my cousin and i are thousands and thousands of miles apart.
it would be kinda cool to lend my skills during her first pregnancy.
well, at least massage is prevalent over there in England where she's at.
hopefully, there's also folks there that practice pregnancy massage.

I'm just excited for the little one to come out. :)