old bad habits never die
it's a shame really when one never grows out of their awful,
self-absorbed behavior.
the worst part about it is when they bring others down.
it's their mechanism for picking themselves up.
it's their way of finding some sort of pride and power for themselves.

i often wonder when they will grow out of that.
I feel sorry, but angry and furiated at the same time.
there's no more excuse for this type of behavior.
after all, it's not like they're 10 years old anymore.

i just really get down when innocent people are affected,
especially when they become disempowered.
that is theee absolute WORST.
it is difficult, especially when that person throws
cruel, vicious words around like it's nothing.
the automatic thing to do is internalize it when you are on the receiving end.
how awful!!!

seeing all of this makes me appreciate the positive things that i DO have in my life:
friends and family that are down-to-earth, genuinely good people,
a partner in life who walks beside me, grows with me and believes in me,
and most importantly.
an openness to different perspectives and values
that helps me keep it real.