i want to be a "teetser"
while getting my blood sucked out of me into three viles at the hospital lab this morning,
my random thought process led me to a remarkable epiphany:
I want to become an educator.

Here's how my random thought process went as the Pinay Phlebotomist
drained my veins:
- "uh oh, here comes the needle"...
- "oh, i barely felt a thing"...
- "damn, I can't believe I still had to pay a $5 co-pay for this lab test"...
- "I should really look into Blue Cross/Blue Shield"...
- "I'm glad we have a local hospital that has a well-developed maternity program"...
-"I'd want to give birth there, esp. since they have midwives and doulas like El said"...
-"It sucks how pre-natal care is not easily accessible to underserved/low income communities.."
- "I'd want to set up a program like that to provide free & accessible education to those communities"...
- "Maybe I could use my background in massage therapy..."
(by now - 2 min. later - the Pinay Phlebotomist had completely filled all three viles and bid me a nice day)

dunno if it's cause i'd been fasting for over twelve hours
for this blood test,
or because of my conversation with El about health care plans & Doulas,
or because of the insightful words B filled my head with last night,
but
somehow that epiphany made so much sense.
it's that one thing I have been looking for to invest my life in...the thing
that will allow me to be an effective resource in the community,
which is a value that has been central to everything I am about.
*sigh*

it's nice to have a little direction.