uncertainty

it's an odd state of affairs.

on the one hand, it's limiting
and frustrating
because you cannot move forward as you please.

on the other hand,
it is comforting
because it gives you an excuse
to be complacent
and do nothing if you wanted to.

what is really the purpose of this place,
I ask?
should we just ignore the uncertainty
and move along as we wish?

or should we play it safe
and nest for a while
until we get the green light?

I'm sure the answer lies
somewhere in between
as it always is in ambiguous
situations such as this.

Perhaps the most frustrating
thing of all is the lack of power
one has over the situation.
(or maybe it's just my imagination.)

I guess the bottom line is,
how do I empower myself
and move forward from that enlightenment?
is this step even possible?
if so, what is the point, what is the purpose?
am i just reaching for something that is not there?

i really do hate wasting time,
even though it is one of my best talents.
but what next for me then?
what next for ME?