f.r.u.s.t.r.a.t.e.d.

So today I am sick. I caught the sore throat that
my bf was nursing last week. Ugh! At least I had
an excuse to stay home from work.
I really hate talking about work because I am such
in a limbo-like space with it.
I just feel like I am floating and never moving forward there.
It has a lot to do with our dysfunctional structure.
It's not catastrophic, but I just feel that we are not
all on the same page in terms of what our priorities are.

I mean, there is so much building still to be done.
And it's even doubly difficult when you also have to
deal with daily operations. Balancing these two things
is really challenging and frustrating when you do not have a
plan or a timeline in which to achieve this plan.

What's worse is that I get myself too stressed out over things.
It really isn't worth it, especially when we are in a state of
chaos, not really being on the same page about what needs to happen
first, second, third, etc. I guess right now I have just had it.
I'm tired of trying.
For now I am resigned to creating structure for my piece of the work
and that's it.
Unfortunately, this is challenging considering the fact that I answer to
multiple people and serve as a support system to many.

be careful what you wish for! ;)