just what i needed

all last week at work, i tried to focus
on getting better mentally, physically and spiritually.
i took it easy. kept myself from unnecessary worrying.
and darn it, all of my efforts helped.

working out at least 4 times last week
really made a difference in terms of my
energy level
and emotional state.
I felt more emotionally balanced/stable
and this allowed me to have a more
balanced perspective on my work situation/stresses.
I was actually able to control my crazy
anxiety over shit.

then came saturday, the day I had been waiting for all week.
after my melt down over work crap the previous sunday, my bf
suggested that we go down to Monterey.
Hearing him say that was my total salvation.
Duh?! Of course I needed to get the FUCK
away from here, if even for 1 day.
and this we did.

We started off with a nice drive down Hwy 1
with John Mayer blaring on my CD player.
We stopped off at my favorite piece of
heaven along this drive, Garrapata Beach.
Unfortunately, not all of the yellow wildflowers were in bloom
this time, but the landscape was heavenly nonetheless.
Instead of kickin' it in the middle of the vastness of the
wildflowers, we decided to head down to the beach,
even though we weren't supposed to since
the stairwell that led us down to it was
completely missing the last 10 steps down.
We had do be creative instead.

Once we got on the beach, it was like being
in unforbidden territory, since there was literally
only a handful of people there.
We met a nice gentleman named David.
He was from the south of France and was traveling
down this stretch of Pacific coast on his own.

Then, we climbed on a rock that would get
surrounded by water once the tide hit the shore.
I swear, I could sit there all day if I could.
The view from up there was majestic
and the solitude of just us two sitting there
was peaceful. everything I needed to wash my troubles away.

we then drove back to Carmel and hung out at the beach.
we had to fight off those crummy little beach flies
in the first spot we claimed.
but the second spot was much more relaxing
that i almost fell into deep sleep after reading
the Clinton book for only 10 min.
Waking up to the sound of the ocean waves
and the crisp sea air was truly truly a memorable moment.
again, i wish i could stay there forever.

after the beach, we walked around downtown Carmel
to look for a place to eat dinner.
we settled on Flaherty's since all of the "hot spots"
were booked for another 2 hours.

Instead of hanging out at a local cafe, we decided to
drive up Hwy 1 some more to our favorite seaside
resort.
Believe it or not, I found out about this place
back in '93/'94 while looking through the newspaper.
I was actually looking around for a nice place to take
my bf for our 3.5 yr. anniversary, so seeing the ad for the
new resort was like a sign.
At the time, it only cost $75/night to stay at this lovely
little seaside resort. Now, it's like $250/night!
Hella crazy capitalism!
Nevertheless, it was great to go back there because it really
is a nice place to stay if you really wanna "get away".

I just wanna say how lucky I feel
to have had that opportunity to really be at peace,
if even for a little while.
Gawd, how I needed the break from everything.
I know it did me good because my heart has been a lot
lighter ever since.
The detox is working. All i need to start doing now
is to lay off those damn carbs.
Then I think my detox will be complete.

too sleepy to write more, so will end here.

'til next time...