11:56a

WOOPEEE!
Woke up at 11a. I hope this means the spell is broken. again.
I've been waking up at 1p for the last 3 days.
That's a formula for a very unproductive day. well, something like that.

anyhoo, I went to bed "early" (12a instead of 2:30a) to try to
break this insomnia spell.
I ended up sleeping around 2:30a, though, because i spent most
of the time tossing and turning, thinking about stuff, reading.
Oh well, at least my ass got up earlier today.

'got a phone call at 11:30a from an ex-co-worker.
she's back from her first semester in grad school. how exciting!
we're having lunch next week to catch up some more.
I'm really glad we've kept the lines of communication open,
because I'm really excited to hear about how life's been for her.

it's funny cause around the same time last year, we were
both layed off from our job. Although I volunteered to get layed off,
it was pretty tough for her. Luckily things turned around for the better.

family time
hmm..lots to do today again.
will continue my cleaning and setting up.
then, having dinner with my family and aunt and uncle tonight.
my brother was in finals during my b-day last tuesday, so we
had to schedule my b-day dinner for tonight since it's his last day of finals.

gonna eat at Le Cheval. I've heard good things about this place, but have
never been there. i believe it's vietnamese cuisine. yum!

i was just thinking though...
how my parents don't really owe me any more b-day or x-mas gifts ever!
they already bought me a car,so I think that's good forever.
apparently my mom had been saving for a year or so, because she knew my old one
(god rest her Honda soul...I LOVE that car!) would be breaking down soon.
Good ol' mom, always giving.

It was really generous of them to do that for me.
I honestly didn't ask for it and still feel wierd about it.
In a way, I felt ashamed
...that I couldn't afford it myself.

I was raised to be independent and self-sufficient, so
I've tried to do everything myself. Pay for my own stuff.
I take pride in being financially independent, even though my non-profit salary wasn't the greatest.
Accepting the car was wierd. I really needed a new one, but on the other hand, accepting it meant
being financially dependent of my parents. again.

still don't know how to reconcile all of that, but
I'm really grateful for the car, because my other one eventually died.
As soon as I get a new job, i'm gonna pay my parents back on a monthly basis.
that's the only way I can think of to reconcile my feelings and thank them
for their generosity....even though they don't even expect to get paid back.