6:35p

a meaning to life
just finished watching a story on Galen and Barbara Rowell on TV with my boyfriend.
The Rowell's were famous photographers, philanthropists, and protectors of the environment.
They weren't Hollywood celebrities, but their life's work and the kind of people they were
inspired many. The clip was very short,
but watching it gave me hope in everyday people, because
that's who the Rowell's were: everyday people with a vision, a heart and indelible integrity
...the kind of person I aspire to be.

how ironic it was for them to pass away together.
and even though they are now in "heaven",
I think they already found it
100 times over through their travels and views of the world.
And because of that, I see how they came to respect nature and (plain and simply),
humanity.

photography does that.

I am always amazed at the types of shots my boyfriend takes.
I often wonder how he came about to see that particular perspective.
I believe it partly comes from inside...what is in the photographer's soul,
experience, feelings.
It's become a liberating element in his life,
especially with the type of formulaic job he has. though there's room for
creativity and challenge in his job, photography
opens him up to an even greater existence.
I'm sure he could do better in explaining this, though.

one foot forward
'been pensive again about my future.
so many possibilities...lots of fear to deal with...
dunno really which direction to step
or what foot to step with.

got lots of experience under my belt
but not too sure what direction to take that in.
read lots of books that have inspired me.
watched lots of stuff that has given me perspective.
what to do with it all...that is the eternal question.

don't want to waste it, though.
I know I have it in me...potential.
still afraid
but not backing down.

perhaps I just need focus.
focus.
focus.

isn't it amazing how one can live life in one's head,
when there's so much more in the real world?