10:03a

back down from the rafters
I didn't blog yesterday cause I was feeling kinda crappy.
and that's pretty ironic considering that i got another massage last night.
I guess I just had way too many toxins released in my system.
I'm not surprised being that I haven't worked out in a while and
I've been literally feeding off of junk food and too many carbs!

I just curled up in bed after I ate dinner and read my book.
After 4 pages of reading, I simply conked out.

On my drive home in my relaxed but kinda depressed mood,
i had several revelations.
a) I've been spending too much money again
b) I'm getting too dependent on food...again
c) I'm not taking care of my health...again
d) I'm losing focus on my goals and aspiration
e) ...and I need to snap out of this funky rut i'm in!!!!

So here i am, back to earth...deconstructing, reconstructing and so forth...again.

my Honda house
so today, I am not...I repeat..NOT going to drive anywhere.
...except maybe the grocery store.
I just realized that i spend at least 12 hours in my car
driving during the 4 days that I go to work.
Although that may seem average, I still don't feel like drivng anywhere today!

amazement
I opened an e-mail this morning from my brother, who sent me his cover letter
and resume for this fictitious job he's "applying for". it's all part of this
pilot project in his department to see how well prepared their engineering students
are in the job-hunting process.

My brother said his cover letter and resume were all done last minute
since he had to tend to a whole load of other work.
Shoot, the boy is taking 18 units in his last semester of college!
Yup. he's crazy.

I was happy to find, though, that he did quite well on his cover letter and resume.
And as I was reading, it hit me what an exceptional student and individual my brother is.
WOW...he's a double major in Mechanical Engineering and Aeronautics with a minor in Math..and a 3.4 GPA!
AND in his first year of college, he mentored a high school youth in their Pilipino organization's Kuya/Ate Program.
he's done various other projects and things that have required his ingenuity and skills.
[add to that the very down-to-earth personality he has AND (most especially) how he is
the most loyal, loving and giving friend you could ever have]

it was just wierd because even though my brother talks about all of his projects and school work
and the minimal extracurricular activities he does, he's just my brother, you know.
I mean, I know he's pretty amazing but he's just talking about everyday stuff to him.
He's not being arrogant or conceited or anything. He's just sharing his life with me
like in any old conversation.

but on paper...wow.
It just brings everything into perspective: my brother is amazing beyond belief
and I'm soooooo proud of him!