okay, one more time....

and exhaaaale (phewwwwww)
so my last four hours of work was shear hell.
anything and everything went wrong as i was rushing to
complete something before I left.
I had a doctor's appointment to get to by 4p, which i missed because
of the chaos. dammit!

learned a lot from this experience though.
mainly that I need to pay more attention to detail,
communicate better with my colleagues
and not trust the higher ups just because they are the higher ups.
I need to evaluate situations more critically rather than putting all my
faith on folks just because they are in a more superior role than mine.

the good thing is, i'm noticing how more acutely aware I am of myself and my body.
it's a good thing, cause I caught myself "sweating the small stuff"
and tried to change my perspective right away.
I don't think my senses were as keen at my old job.
my senses were so flooded with stress and work-related things
that didn't amount to losing sleep.
and i let that all affect me physically and emotionally.

I'm glad it's different this time around.
Besides, I should know better by now.

I have noticed, though that it takes me a while to completely
shake off the work stresses of the day, especially when
my in-box is still full at the end of the day.
thank goodness I've been more aware of this.
At least it only takes an hour before I come back to my senses.
in fact, I've almost forgotten what the hell I was worrying about
an hour ago.

Planning on releasing even more of my physical stress at the gym.
The adrenaline rush will do me some good.
Gonna head over there right now.