and the search continues....
i thought i had it made today when i was able to book a massage in Berkeley.
the tension in my upper back/neck/etc. area still had not released when i woke up thi
morning.
in fact, it was pretty difficult to turn my head.
i felt like a cramp had crippled my neck and shoulder area.
I was again desperate for relief.

unfortunatley, the therapist I got was a good one, but
not for me.
she was too light on the pressure and did not spend enough
time on my upper back area like I had asked.
I felt kinda bad for her too because although she has
been a therapist for 15 years, she could not decipher which
muscle she was massaging when I asked her, "is that the teres minor muscle?".
She simply replied, "I'm not sure".
Come to think of it, I don't even think she knew what i was
talking about when I mentioned that I thought my tension was coming
from the "supraspinatus" muscle.
boy, i certainly want to be a better therapist than that in 15 years.

I was also not impressed with the limited number of stroke variations she used.
it was pretty much the same motion over and over again.
she didn't even use her forearms in any of her strokes.
I was quite surprised.
I don't think she had bad intentions within the session.
But I do think she was not focused enough nor did she listen intently to my needs.
it's not that she didn't care. perhaps her mind was on other things.

unfortunately, this means it's back to the drawing board for me.
I think I won't go into my spa job tomorrow night.
I was thinking of trying out this one lady in Berkeley.
She integrates different modalities with another modality called Soft Tissue Release
(or something like that)
I hope that works.

For now , I think I will just rely on my bf, even if he hates trying to give me
massages.
But he offered to help anyway.
sweet guy.
I just hope he has a little more patience than usual, cause
this thing in my back is pretty serious tension.