re-invention of thyself

by the tme i get to the computer, my brain is simply
too tired to blog.
that's how I've been feeling these last couple of nights
with my new 10 hour work schedule.

luckily tonight, I decided to take care of myself instead
of go into the spa for my second night.
My neck has been bothering me for a few days.
I think the tight muscles are somehow impinging on one
of the nerves, cause the muscles below my eyes tend to twitch
every now and again.
It's as if my eyes are tired or ready to sleep.

so i decided to go back to the old bodywork place I used to work at.
I love that place.
once I climbed into the flannel sheets on the table,
i felt like i was at home.
it was so comforting to know that I would be taken care of again by one of my colleagues.
and I am sooo happy that I went, because even though
the tension in my neck was not completely released, the rest of my tight muscles were.
I could literally feel the tingle from the blood making it's way through the vessels in my neck
to my brain.

*sigh*

during the session, I just kept thinking to myself
how i need to re-adjust my lifestyle again in order to find and maintain
that balance that I want and need.
these last 4 days of working was a good test to see exactly how
my "balance" would be affected.

for one thing, I need to make time to stretch before I get ready for work and
at least twice during the day.
I also need to make time to walk or do something active on my lunch hour
to keep the circulation going through my veins.
Most importantly, I need to make time to do at least 15 minutes of
cardio on my crazy 10-hour work days.
and finally, no more wearing heels to work for me! damn, i feel like I broke my
foot today from wearing my stupid boots.
I had to literally massage the knots out of my in-step for almost an hour
to get it to relax.

Also, reading The Food Revolution has changed my thinking of eating
beef, chicken, other poultry, pork, dairy, and processed foods.
I'm gonna stay away from eating them as much as possible.
It's amazing the things we don't know about the foods we eat.
no wonder there is such a high percentage of heart disease and cancer in the U.S.

I dunno...I feel like i'm going through another level of self discovery.
over the last 5 years, I think I've been able to develop my emotional, spiritual and
psychological sense of self.
On this new journey, I feel as if my senses are more keen to notice
my physical being.
Whatever it is, i'm definitely getting pulled in some direction.