10:11a

california dreamin'
good morning! just woke up a few minutes ago.
'had another one of those bad dreams I sometimes have about my boyfriend.
you know, those dreams that involve him cheating or something.
I used to be really insecure about that when we first started going out 10 years ago.
I blieve it is primarily due to a previous relationship experience that left me a little scarred.
I guess that it's still buried in my subconscious.

In this same dream, I was still in college and was in a situation where I never went to class
or did my homework. This is a recurring thing in my dreams, too, partly due to similar
real-life experiences in college. Sometimes I even dream that I never actually graduated...
and when I wake up, it feels so real that I literally have to take a second to come to my
senses.

then, there were a couple of times in my lifetime that I dreamt of something terrible...
'don't quite remember the details, but I literally woke up crying. This actually
happened in July when we were in Canada. I dreamt about my brother as an infant dying and
I woke up crying like a baby. My poor boyfriend was so confused, and my crazy self could not
stop crying even when I woke up from the dream.

Dreams are just funny like that sometimes.