11:04a

busy bee
missed a blog yesterday on purpose.
'was feelin' lots of different emotions and didn't really want to write about it.
I hate it when you can't decipher what's going on in your heart.
it's like being left at the bottom of a well.

but my day wasn't all that crummy...
'woke up early and worked out at the gym with my bf.
'felt good to do that, even with the confusion that impeded my thinking.

then, my bf cooked another one of his yummy soups for lunch.
afterwards, i got ready for my interview in the city.
It was for a massage position at one of the major hotels downtown.
Unfortunately, when I got there, I was at the wrong place. Dumb ass!
But luckily, I got to the right one and in time...I even had 10 minutes to spare.

The interview went well I thought.
It wasn't a difficult interview by any means. Very layed back.
I appreciated

(ooh, just in: I just got a call from my temp agency and they gave me a temp job assignment that will run for at least 2 weeks! yay! money!)

anyhow, as I was saying...I appreciated her honesty and candor
in answering my questions and in explaining about the spa and
the position. I did the same with my answers...I didn't feel any
need to impress her, so I just went with the flow.

Only thing is, as nice as she was and as much as she
conveyed their spa's focus on exceeding client's needs, I could tell
that she was coming more from a business perspective than a human
perspective. She didn't really have any background in massage
except in running a spa, so I don't think she fully grasps what
massage is really about. To her, it was more of a luxury
than a form of healing.

And when I asked her about her spa's philosphies/values about
staff professional development, she gave me the weakest-ass answer!
It basically showed me that she's definitely coming from a different place than myself.
I think she would probably sacrifice the well-being of her therapists
in order to make profits.
Of course, I could be wrong and I'm probably judging her based on very little info, but
something tells me that my gut-feelings are more right than wrong.

But nevertheless, I think I would accept a job offer there if I got one.
I would definitely be up for the challenge of changing things around in there.
Besides, I can't expect a place to have everything i require.
We'll see...they might not even want me after hearing me go off
about my thoughts as massage turning too much into a commodity.
hehehe...I wonder what she was thinking when I said all that!
'Probably went through one ear and out the other! (typical capitalist)


my other job
while I was driving on the Bay Bridge from my interview, I got a call from
my soon-to-be job.
'said they are gonna have a mandatory meeting on Friday to discuss
what will come next.
I do feel bad for them and understand the hell they've gone through with the
city's permit office.
I just couldn't help but be selfish and feel frustrated for myself.
It's about damn time we met!
Shoot, I just hope they know what they're doing with this process of getting everyone together.
It was bad enough that we didn't get timely updates on the progress along the way.
That for me was the worst.
'Made me feel un-valued.

But we'll see. I do know that their hearts and intentions are in the right place.
I just hope that they really do know how to manage 50+ employees.

on the hunt
Anhoo, after all that, I went back on-line to look for jobs.
'Found a couple that I missed the day before, so I'm gonna work on those
today. One is for a position in a massage school on the peninsula and
the other is for a position at a Native American Charter School in Oakland.
It's funny cause when I used to work at my old job, I actually collaborated
with the charter school to donate all of our used office furniture to them, since we
were purchasing new ones. They were a really nice group of folks.
'Definitely an environment that I would flourish in.
hmmm....maybe that little bit of info will help me in my application.

anyhoo, 'decided to take a break when I noticed that it was 10p.
I watched "The Real World" and "The Osbournes" on MTV.
I also taped NBC Dateline cause they were doing a story on Avril Lavigne.
That was cool. I swear, that girl is talented!
And her song-writing is so raw and honest and deep...my favorite song is still "Anything But Ordinary".
In fact, I think her album is probably my favorite.

anyhoo, 'gonna keep on applying to jobs today.
will write more later.