11:21p

worth a thousand words
sometimes when i blog, I don't express
the things that really need to be aired out.
sometimes I put limits on how much space I take up here,
when I have all the space in the world...well, almost.

and lately, I've been feeling stifled in my writing.
I think I am subconsciously trying to conform to some "blog standard".
It's easy to fall into this trap, especially since I read so many wonderful blogs out there.
i am probably self conscious that my blog isn't as good or written as well.

But today when I received an unexpected letter from a friend,
I remembered the whole reason why I blog, why this space means so
much to me....

I realized that I don't write for the entertainment of others.
In fact, I could care less if i had any visitors to my blog.
But I am aware of my place in this publicly accessible corner of the universe.
I guess that just adds to the excitement of it all.

But most importantly, I realized that this blog is mine to use
as a space to process and reflect on my experiences....ultimately, my life.
Not so much to chronicle the daily happenings (although I do that sometimes), but more so
to make sense of the things that fall in my lap.

In fact, I really value reflection. Without it, I would never grow or get to the places I want to be.
Coming to some understanding of my world
also helps me connect the dots to the rest of the world.
And that is really important to me.

So, KAT, if you are reading this,
thank you soooo much for this reminder,
and also for your beautiful, beautiful letter.
You really know how to make a girl cry, don't ya!